Abdullahi Mire
Today I received a sort of wake-up call about my situation.
Live time or dead time.
Wastefulness or wakefulness.
Things to start:
Prayer
Reading Quran
Reading more often
Drinking water more frequently, exercising, eating healthier.
Planning for the future
Checking in with yourself constantly
Having faith and belief in the positive outcome
Combating ignorance and laziness
Meditation
Maintain good hygiene
Things to quit:
Minimize screen time
Any form of addictive behavior
Laying down for hours
Quitting too soon
excessive music.
Exercises:
Mountain Climber
Jumping Jacks
Horse Stance
backward lunge
15,000 steps
bear crawl
The practice of life is one filled with hopelessness. it is, by definition, a futile effort that will end in
destruction.
But by living as a decent human being and as a decent Muslim, I can work to pass my time and
make something successful out of my life.
what else truly matters.
it is all kusr, it is all loss.
There are only fleeting gains. only temptation, only distress, only depreciation. even what we
consider growth in this life is just the early stage of a decline.
I don’t mean to be morbid here, but I do need to be realistic. I need to stop wasting the little time
I have left.
There is indeed no purpose to be found in an exhaustive search for purpose. you just go out
there and do what you need to do on a daily basis. walk the walk. Don’t just talk the talk and
think the think. Keep moving forward. But know in your mind that your final destination is not in
this life and live with the awareness that the hereafter is what you really want and really need so
take heed. The only way to make the most of my life here is to do good and establish a
connection to a higher purpose, something bigger than yourself and your nagging miniscule yet
constant problems and worries. They say the act of giving back truly gives back to not just
others but also to yourself. However, I don’t know if anyone really says that, I just think of it that
way, lol. Indeed, you are at a loss. The distress, the depression the grief the unfounded anguish,
the pain that doesn’t go away, the existential crisis you are having. All this is part of the loss that
is inherent within life. Keep moving, keep doing, keep praying, keep getting help, keep trying to
give back, just don’t ever give up. Fight back harder, come back stronger, do more, and be
better. What is life but a constant struggle to find meaning and purpose and drive and will and
happiness and everlasting gain. There is a light, but not in this tunnel, it only shines down upon
you if you take the right turns as you head out of the tunnel. Keep moving forward. Do not
regress; looking back even is sometimes worthless. They say history repeats itself unless u
learn from it, but if you extrapolate this bullshit point, you realize all of human history can be
boiled down into a simple search for power, for meaning, for fulfillment, for success, for a better
tomorrow. So don’t focus too much on the past, don’t even think too deeply about the far future.
Just take it day by day and step by step. There is no other way, no other path than the one you
are setting upon with your two feet. Take it into stride. Take the losses on the chin and get back
up laughing. Take the pain and get back up while praying and thanking the One who is giving it
to you. Take the suffering and realize it is a blessing to even be in a position to consider this
insignificant nonsense in your privileged perspective as “suffering”. There are people dying to
live and people living to die. Choose to be the person who is living with the knowledge of what
awaits you after death. Don’t be an idiot. Don’t be ignorant. Don’t entertain thoughts of letting it
all go and giving in to your own stupidity. I am harsh here to myself but I actually have a lot of
selfishness. How else would I have done the things I have done if not for an inflated sense of
self? Just enjoy things as they come but know they will come and go. Life is but a dream. Merrily
we go downstream. This is what you have seen.
When you consider what school has been like since you came back, you find the definition of
with difficulty comes ease, and indeed with more difficulty comes more ultimate ease. Even the
insignificant and minuscule amount of suffering I have completed in my life heretofore has
resulted in me developing and adopting a completely different mindset about what ease and
difficulty are.
Alhamdulilahil Rabbil Alameen. La Hawla Wa Quwata Illa billah. There is nothing that can be
done, no strength or weakness, no gain or loss, no way forward, and no way backwards without
the will of Allah Subhana Wa t’Ala. All praise and thanks be to The Most High, The Most
Merciful, The Most Loving, The Most Forgiving. Allahu Akbar. MashAllah TabarakAllah.
Life is looking downright amazing right now. I like where I’m at, I like where I’m headed. I like
who I’m choosing to surround myself with. I know I could always be doing better, but progress
comes one step at a time. Rome wasn’t built in a day, and I know that the process of achieving a
sense of complete ease and self-satisfaction is a never-ending one with no true marker for final
accomplishment. There is so much to do, so many places to be, so many people to meet, and
above all, so much time to dedicate to the hereafter. Even though I wouldn’t say I am the best
Muslim, I feel that I am in a much better position than I was a few years ago. Keep moving
forward. Keep laughing, keep smiling, keep up the optimism. Keep up the feeling of fulfillment
and love and joy for all that life has to offer. Keep being mindful of what pleases Allah. Keep
working to better yourself. Keep it turnt all the way up. Keep checking in with yourself to make
sure things are going okay. Keep learning, keep earning, keep swerving away from the
situations and people that you know will bring you little to no benefit or meaning. SubhanAllahi
wa Bihamdihi, SubhanAllahil Azeem. Keep stacking and saving, and don’t be wastin and gamin.
Controlled aggression. Always in control of what I can and should be in control of, and always
leaving the rest up to the Highest Power. Do what you can and do what you should; don’t always
do what you want and what you could work to be good. Become someone you would be proud
and happy to be associated with. Be compassionate, and treat yourself like the lifelong best
friend you never had. As Yachty would say, when the haters hatin, just say fuck ’em and keep
doing your thing. Aint here to waste my time with meaningless actions or purposeless
endeavors. Here to enjoy what life has to offer, to be satisfied with my portion of blessings and
rizq, and also to keep things in perspective and not take everything so seriously. Allahuma
Barik. Allahuma sali ala Muhammed wa ala ali Muhammed. Kama Salayta ala Ibrahim wa ala ali
Ibrahim. Innika Hamadeen majeed. Allahuma Barik ala Muhammed wa ala ali Muhammed
Kama barakta ala Ibrahum wa ala ali Ibrahim. Fil Alameen innika hamdeen majeed. Ya
Rahman, ya Raheem, ya Haiyull Qayuum, ya Ghafoor ya Nur, I beg of you to enter me, my
family, and the entire Muslim community into the highest levels of Jannah.